writing prompt #12

If you could change one thing in the world, what would it be and why?

If I could change anything in our world, I would take all of the hate out of our society. Hate for race, sex, sexual orientation, religion. I think we would have a healthier planet if this was the case. It would prevent deaths of innocent soldiers who dont deserve it. It would save heartache for those who dont deserve it. This world would just be better without it.

writing prompt #9

The movie about my life would be a sad story about failed love. It would show that girl always striving to be what that boy wants. It would be a path to self discovery that takes several sequals to it, because I just haven't quite found who I am. Who I'm meant to be. What I'm meant to be. It would show the struggles I have to work through. I would definately hope i would be acted out by Rebel Wilson. I can only hope to be a person with a quarter of her personality.

writing prompt # 8

This is what i want to be true about myself. I play it off as if this is the truth about me, but it never is. Everyone will look at me and say, yeah thats her. No, its not.I love being able to make other girls like me love themselves, or rather inspire them to. But i have alot of things that I wish i viewed like this photo. I wish I was this picture. There isnt one day that I don't feel like there is something I have to change because someone else wont like it. I want a boy to love me, so I feel like I have to be someone else for them to pay attention to me. I want to be the person that picture describes.

writing prompt #10

What are your five favorite songs at this point in time?  Why?

1- my absolute favorite song is Spacebound by Eminem. I think i love this song because it speaks of a love that is septic, but so intense that he doesnt want to think that it isn't going to last. He states "Love is EVOL, spell it backwards I'll show you."  He had that love, then it went terribly wrong. Even when he doesnt want to he keeps after her. Whether or not he wants to, his heart makes him keep going. He talks about the physical pain of heartbrake, which i relate to.
2- another song I listen to quite frequently is called Mirror by Lil Wayne ft. Bruno Mars. This song talks about self reflection and talks about how Wayne keeps seeing these sad things about this man and how he has nobody, and that he is so disgusted with what he sees. Then in the chorus he reveals that he is looking in a mirror and criticizing himself.
3-I also like Love The Way You Lie Part III by Rhianna. In the first part it sings about a violent abusive relationship that was toxic for both parts. It talks about how love made them do horrible things. The part III just feels like its that time in someone's head that you are comparing the good to the bad, and remembering things as they were. Its like what goes on after the calm of the storm. It still has those same things in it about the fights, but its like its calm, and in the end she makes the decision to leave. It is amazing.
4-Just To Get High by Nickelback has alot of emotion behind it. It talks about a toxic friendship where a friend tries to be there for another friend who has a severe addiction to some sort of drug. He begins to steal and be violent just to get a fix. He gives up everything to get the drugs that he wants. In the chorus it talks about how the friend finds him all messed up in an alley and is just really frustrated with him.
5-Just Give Me A Reason by P!nk. It talks about how things start to fall apart in this couples' marraige/relationship after a while, even though their love was explosive and so amazing at first. Together they fix eachothers imperfections. They get to that huge bump in their relationship, and they force eachother over it and save their love and relationship. It is beautiful.

writing prompt #11

What is your legacy? What are you leaving behind for others? (or what do you hope you are leaving behind for others)  Another way to think of this question: how do you want to be remembered by future students? Or do they want to remembered at all? If not, why not?

I want the other kids to remember me by the way I was. I stood up for those who deserved it. I May be overweight, but I have always been overly confident. I'm an amazing friend to those who deserve it, but to those who are bullies and just mean because they have a name, money, or just think they can, I let them know exactly what I think of them. I want girls to remember me for what I am. I want every girl to know that she has a voice and she is allowed to use it whenever she wants. I hope I at least help people to do the right thing for them. If they have abusive parents or a boyfriend, I hope they have the strength to get help. If they believe that they should do drugs like I did, to forget, I hope they realize what it is doing to their lives and stop. I hope that they don't believe it when people in their lives tell them they are worthless, and to prevent them from sleeping with people to feel better about themselves.

In the long run I hope to be that person that girls look to and say, "She did it, why cant I? I'm worth it."

writing prompt #7

If you could meet anyone - past or present - who would it be and why?

If i could meet anyone, i would meet my grandfather. He died two months before my brother. The way that everyone in my family speaks of him, he was a wonderful person and i wish i had been able to meet him. He was said to be the most gentle giant. If you were to do something bad, just a look would make you cry because you knew you disappointed him. He would tell you how beautiful you looked every day. He would drop everything he was doing at the drop of a hat just to help a neighbor. His family meant everything to him, and you had better not hurt them, because he would make you apologize because you just felt sorry.
All in all i feel like it would be wonderful to be a person like him, having the same respect demanded, expected, and recieved. I want a family who will go to the ends of the earth to make me feel better, nurse me when I'm sick, hold my hand when i get bad news. I want the love that this man had, and still has to this day.
I feel like in the whole perspective of things, my father has that same kind of life going for him. He is much more aggressive, but the same kind of principle applies to him. I know he cares about my family and I over everything else in this world. There is nothing more important to him than our safety and happiness.
In a way i have gotten to meet my grandfather. I may not have the actual memories with him, but what I do have is the stories my mother, grandmother, uncles, and friends of the family have told me.

writing prompt #6

What are you most proud of?
I am most proud of my parents. They have not had the easiest life, but they have done amazing together. They have set an amazing example for me. Their love probably wouldnt have become anything if my father hadnt waited on my mom even though she was 2 hours late to their first date. Their love should have crashed when my oldest brother, Wade, passed away. What i see when i look hard enough at my parents is that they love eachother for everything that they are.
My mother, despite all of the horrible things that have happened to her in the past, is the most trusting, loving, and compassionate person i know. I have made so many mistakes in my life, but never once has she made me feel like she didnt love me.
My dad had a hard child hood with not a whole lot of anything given to him. He has done nothing but care for my brothers and i. He provides more than is necessary for us, there is a beautiful home, food, beds, and a bunch of non necessities that he has just because.
I believe i am most proud of my parents because they are outstanding citizens, great parents, and most of all just good people with good intentions. I hope that one day i will become just like them. I want friends who will go to the ends of the earth for me, a husband who will fight for my love, stand by my side in the worst time of my life, and be happy the day i die because i lived the life i wanted to.

prompt 4

What is your personal credo (belief)?


I believe in morals, good choices, respect, and compassion. When you walk by something that you know is bad; an underfed animal, a car theft in the city, a husband who abuses his wife; what do you do? Do you call the police? Do you just keep walking and ignore it because its none of your business? I cannot stand people who have a sense of entitlement who feel like they can do whatever they want to whoever they want. I feellike people should strive to be a part of their society and be a productive part of it as well.
Parents who don't prepare their children for lives out on their own, shouldn't spend their whole life trying to help their children out because they didn't properly prepare them for what life is really like. I feel like most criminals are created when parents do not enforce rules or punishments. The most important thing in a childs life is structure. But, this being said, good people can come from bad situation too.
In the end i belive that it is your choice to be who you want to be.

Post #3

What characteristics do you value most in a friend?


The thing i value most in a friend is honesty. I have had some horrible friendships in the short time i have been in this world. Frienships should have trust, loyalty, honesty, and love. It should be all about being around that person and being happy, and lastly, it is about making connections and being there for these people in their times of need.

I recently decided that it wasnt a good thing to be around my old best friend. She used me for money, treated me horribly, and all around just was not a good person who made bad decisions. Now, when I finally decided that it was done, it opened up my life to three wonderful people. They are some of the best friends anyone could ask for.

What they have is honesty, respect, love, and i feel i can trust them. I hope that everyone in their life gets to have a friendship in their life as amazing as mine are.

writing prompt #2

What does the following quote mean to you? "You don’t get to pick where you’re from, but you always have control of where you’re going."

I have always had a sour spot when it comes to my father. We struggle to get along, and constantly get into petty arguments.

He wasnt always the nicest parent, he did occasionally hit us, and he was very strict as well. I do feel like what he did was good on us kids. We have all become good people. We have compassion, a good sense of right and wrong, as well as us all wanting to do something with our lives.

My only problem is that my father and I are like two peas in a pod. His anger with us as small children has made me an angry person too. Some of the things my father said to me in the past have been horrible and rude, and some have even stuck with me to this day. Now, don't get me wrong, i love my father, but it has had its toll on me. I sometimes am terrified that I will do or say the same thing to my children, and I don't want them to go through some of the same stuff i did and have. I have promised myself that I will never be too proud to get myself help and that my children will never be treated in the same manner as i was.

On a lighter note, my father has made incredible leaps and bounds. He is currently working a job down in Kansas City. He is happy. I know if he can make the changes, then i can just as well.

I plan on going to college and making myself a name. I want to lead a life that i can be proud of, as weell as make my children proud to say that I am their mother. Life will be full of suprises, I hope i can go with them and stay happy with myself. :)

If a handful of people can change the world for the worse, then I am certain that a handful of people can change the world for the better.

What will you do do to make this world of ours, which feels so broken right now, a better place?

 

I feel like people will judge immediately aginst sex, race, sexual orientation, and religion. Now, I am not a religious person. But, I understand and listen to people when they need to talk. As for sex, nobody can choose what they are born into. You are born with one body, and very few have the money to change the things they hate about themselves. In my personal thoughts, i try to find one beautiful thing about every person. It can be their personality, sense of humor, features, etc. I always try to tell them as well. When people are down on themselves i always tell them a couple of things i appreciate about them. People who question their sexuality are not hurting you. I do not understand where other people feel they have a right to judge on what other people do in their lives. If they are living with you, thats one thing, but if they have nothing to do with you or what you're doing in your life, what leg do you have to stand on? Judging them just goes to show that you are lacking something in your life. Race is something that is still very focused on. I hate when i hear my grandmother calling people dirty names just because they are a different race than causasian. Its horrible to think that this is how she was raised. My parents always taught me that people were people. Sure some of those people werent good people, but some of them were great people, but were never given the time of day.

 

I feel like if people could drop their prejudices, this world wouldn't be falling apart. Be happy, make friends, and stop putting your nose in where it doesnt belong.  Next time you see someone and feel like saying something horrible, stop and think of something you admire about them, and tell them. Leave it at that. its that simple. I hope in the future that everyone can do this and maybe even influence their kids so that they never have a hateful remark enter their head. That would be wonderful.

College

I have not applied to college yet. I do not know where i would like to go. im most likely going to a technical school. I'm looking to go for welding of some sort. i need to go somewhere in the kansas city area and it can be within like 3 hours from there.  if there is a college in that area with a good welding program i would be willing to go and live on campus.